Désolé
march 22, 2024
3 minutes, 7 seconds
this one was fun to record. i made it in my 9th grade music class in the same way i made falling-- my laptop mic, my guitar, and soundtrap presets. but to this day this only one of two songs of mine with actual bass guitar in it. everything else is my guitar pitched down. anyways, this one is alright. there's a really annoying fade-in at the beginning i always wanted to fix, but i lost the original audio file, so it's lost to time. my music teacher retired in 2023, and she was the coolest person ever, i miss her. this song uses the chord progression from pachelbel's canon in d, which we were talking about in class as an example of common chord progressions in songs. i wanted to remake the song and add lyrics for rest, but that never came to be. for the time i recorded it i could have done worse. i'm still really proud of that little acoustic passage at the end. you can tell i was getting really into noisier music and shoegaze here. overall, this song is solid.
Falling Falling Falling Falling Falling
april 1, 2024
2 minutes, 57 seconds
this was the first song i ever recorded. well, first original song. the first song i ever recorded was in 8th grade, and it was a cover of psst, teenagers, take off your clo by car seat headrest. anyways, this song samples a recording of me and my best friend, and a recording of me messing with my vinyl copy of radiohead's ok computer while the tourist was playing. the song uses only presets from soundtrap, except for the guitar and the samples, obviously. i got a B+ on it. our teacher at the time was not the nicest person. but yeah. i was really into post-punk at the time and you can hear that influence here in the bass and drums. this song absolutely does not hold up, it sounds like trash. but it's fine.
Stratford
april 19, 2024
4 minutes, 39 seconds
this was the first song i recorded over the summer of 2024, which was probably my most active period. i would later rerecord this and turn it into static, on promises. i don't mind this. looking back i feel like the chord progression was a bit corny, but i dunno, maybe it's just me. this was a first on a lot of fronts; it was the first time i used an audio interface, the first time i wrote drums and used soundtrap's drum machine, and the first time i wrote something that wasn't meant for school. i'm proud of myself. the song is alright i guess. that bassline has a nice groove to it. this song and the one that'd follow have this really reverby production that feels kinda awkward, especially on the drums. but yeah. i suppose it's not bad for a 15 year old, haha
The Escapist
may 5, 2024
8 minutes, 33 seconds
i was obsessed with long songs at the time, and this was a product of that. it's ok. it was featured on cbrd the box, a bandcamp radio show. as of writing this they haven't had a new episode in over a year, so i have the honor of being the last artist ever played on cbrd the box. lucky me. (aj from i chased a crow was on the same episode, go check her stuff out, shell was my album of the year in 2025.) this song samples a douglas adams quote (see: the "wisdom" page), and cheesy hfj. nothing from an episode of ONE, but from the penultimate episode of his remote series. (go watch "remote goes to sleep," it's phenomenal.) i'd remake this one later and turn it into "exit" from promises.
Not my songs
june 28, 2024
1. Cheerleader [3:36]
2. Two deliverances [3:47]
3. Vampire [2:01]
4. Bodys [5:52]
5. Title track (there is a light) [4:19]
6. Il fait froid [5:32]
7. In the car outside [3:17]
total runtime: 28 minutes, 24 seconds
this was a weird one. i'd been putting out covers one by one and i decided to remix them and compile them into this. first was Two deliverances, then Vampire, then Cheerleader, In the car outside, Title track, then Il fait froid. if i recall correctly. i forget. Bodys was recorded later and released on the EP, no single. this one sounds really rough and lo-fi, almost noisy. my singing is shit and it sounds like i'm trying too hard to go higher than my register. but that's ok. i said for a long time i wanted to make something else that sounded like this, rough and noisy, and i've been kinda doing that with the bride material, but nothing else sounds like this. i never used any amps recording this, it was always my guitar plugged straight into my interface with distortion added in soundtrap. i still love their default dist tone. the drums are distorted as fuck and i love that. Title track was my first time yelling on a recording, though it's more like a raspy yelping. it was also my first time harmonizing vocals, though it was just the octave harmony. In the car outside was my first time double tracking vocals. Vampire was a goofy cover i'd done for fun and that i wanted to record. its single cover is a review of my high school by a graduate. Il fait froid was a song i'd first heard at my very first school band practice. the band was called L'Île du Stylo and one of their members went to my high school. it was a live perforance at La Brunante, a kind of battle of the bands for francophone artists in the area. look it up, it's awesome (username is ketaketish on yt). Bodys was a challege, especially vocally, but i think it turned out really well and i still relisten every now and then (though that may just be because Bodys is already a good song and i change nothing). very lopsided, but it has some gems.
360
august 2, 2024
2 minutes, 57 seconds
because brat summer. duh. i got a boss katana amp with a bunch of built-in effects before i recorded this, and i used a bunch of them here. the calm before the storm
found
august 23, 2024
1. maybe in another life [6:21]
2. i remember you [4:35]
3. found [4:21]
4. it's such a beautiful day [2:56]
5. love song [14:22]
6. almost poetry [2:56]
total runtime: 35 minutes, 31 seconds
my most depressing work. lo-fi, noisy, distorted, emotional, trying to be much more than it is, like a blistering summer's day alone in the dark, wasting away indoors. all the lyrics were written on lonely walks in the woods, and my mental state was very isolated and in a very bad place when i recorded it. love song's lyrics are a bunch of scribbles i wrote down when i was having a panic attack one night. maybe in another life is about contemplating suicide. i remember you is about trying to feel alive while feeling nothing. found is about, probably something but i threw out the lyrics because they were so bad. almost poetry is named that way because i made a snapchat story around the time i was recording the album, where i wrote about walking into my school auditorium, finding a piano, playing the song on it, and leaving, and feeling strange after, and someone i knew said i'd almost written poetry. the album cover is what it is because a) i love mermaids, they are so cool, and b) at the time i was going through a bit of an identity crisis and i would draw lots of self-portraits of different versions of myself, and this was one of them. the chords on maybe in another life were three chords i came up with one day out of the blue, and i have continued to use them basically up until now. this is a weird album but it has a special place in my heart because it was my first time writing lyrics, singing my own lyrics, and it has my longest and best song on it. this album is like a 7/10 in retrospect but i kinda love it
Sue
november 17, 2024
4 minutes, 37 seconds
i was discovering more and more korean music around this time, and i looooved this song by the band ghost bookstore. i wanted to cover it but i couldn't find the lyrics anywhere, so i emailed them and they were generous enough to send them to me. so thank you gb for that. the actual cover's not great, it's pretty lazy, but it's the thought that counts ig
promises
december 8, 2024
1. promises [0:50]
2. clouds [9:28]
3. siproeta [5:22]
4. static [4:55]
5. wildflower [7:43]
6. exit [13:27]
7. stars [5:41]
total runtime: 47 minutes, 26 seconds
garbage. trash. utter shite. the lyrics are shit. the production is shit. the songs are too long. the vocals are atrocious. i hate this album and everything it stands for. it started my habit of releasing albums early for the sake of wanting them out right away, even if they're unfinished. i wanted to use cleaner, more realistic sounding drums, so i did what the french call "compliquer la vie" and programmed each part of the drum kit individually. the worst part is it was soundtrap's presets, so it would have sounded synthetic either way. speaking of synthesis, the lyrics here are so bad. i wanted to write songs from a happier and more hopeful perspective, despite the fact i was very much not in a happy hopeful state of mind. the lyrics are cringe. and awful. i really want to rerecord this one day. there's honestly potential in the songs. like "clouds" is a really good prog/noise pop anthem, "siproeta" is another identity crisis song i still like singing, but other than that each song is ruined by something. more often than not it's the singing. it's so quiet and muffled, you can't understand anything. but if it was louder you'd be able to hear all the awful lyrics. is this a catch-22? this feels like a catch-22. this album is a walking atrocity and i never want to listen to it again
hypnagogia
december 23, 2024
1. winter song [5:25]
2. hypnagogia [26:15]
3. boxing day [6:18]
total runtime: 37 minutes, 58 seconds
ok so. this was written and recorded a while after promises, and it's kinda me experimenting with new sounds. i wanted to kinda embody seasonal depression and ennui in the music. "winter song" is an instrumental in 7/4 and i still really love the chord progression. the title track is a ripoff of boris' flood, duster's stratosphere, and it kinda sounds like karate's unsolved. which is surprising cuz i hadn't heard that album when i recorded it, and now it's one of my fav albums of all time, so that's kinda neat. anyways the song is pretty alright. i love the kinda spoken-word vocal delivery in the first part, then the buildup in the second part is sooooooo cool. i love the way it starts clipping out the more parts come in. then the last part is a sound collage of a dinner party i don't remember recording, me reading the prologue of shadow and bone, and a train. then boxing day is a song i wrote on the spot in one take. this album is so weird but damn is it cool
my darling mary sue
january 4, 2025
5 minutes, 42 seconds
we now get to the last part of the windowpanes canon, the failed album concepts. i have this thing where i need to make an ALBUM, like "this is the order of songs, these are the titles, this is the cover," and i do anything but make the actual songs. the things that make up most of the album. i've been trying to break that habit though. failed concept #1 is a love story of two teenagers, a boy and a girl, falling in and out of love. it would've been more in line with hypnagogia's sound, very minimal and slowcore-ish but bringing back the kinda noisy shoegaze buildups. this would have been the second track. i scrapped it cuz it just didn't seem, well, good, and i had no motivation to write it cuz i was very much not in love. i still wanna try my hand at slowcore and post-rock, but it'll happen when it has to. (love songs on the radio lp1??? who knows)
quietloudquiet
february 7, 2025
5 minutes, 33 seconds
another school project. i got an a+ on it if i recall correctly. i wanted this to be the closing track on daydream, but when i started recording i realized it sounded nothing like what i was doing and i cut it. still, this is pretty good.
wake
april 7, 2025
1. 1 [3:29]
2. 2 [3:17]
3. 3 [2:20]
4. 4 [1:45]
5. 5 [8:41]
6. 6 [2:35]
7. 7 [1:28]
8. 8 [2:58]
9. 9 [1:08]
total runtime: 27 minutes, 41 seconds
i don't know why i made this. it's just acoustic demos. i wasted a really good cover too. there was an album i wanted to make before found called "I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I needed to be" that would have used this cover. i did not end up going with that and i'm glad i didn't end up making that because i was an edgy cringy 14-year-old and it would have been probably the worst album of all time. i'm glad i'm not like that anymore lol
daydream
april 18, 2025
1. 42 [3:44]
2. wither [3:56]
3. haze [4:30]
4. corduroy [8:42]
5. i am so proud of you [2:23]
6. daydream [5:59]
7. song for a mermaid [5:48]
total runtime: 35 minutes, 2 seconds
this is more in-line with found with how it was written and recorded very on-the-spot. it's also the noisiest i've gotten since found. and ooooooh baby it really doesn't get better than this. i'm really proud of it. it still has some flaws, the main ones that stick out to me are the vocals on 42, haze and corduroy, and everything about the bass on corduroy is kinda crap, but other than that this album is solid. 42 and wither are some of my best songs, song for a mermaid is solid, corduroy has my best 10 seconds of singing, and the title track oh my GOD. i wanted to make my own version radiohead's fake plastic trees, or like a jeff buckley ballad, and it turned out so well. it's the best windowpanes song. i think. i dunno. yeah this is good. i like this one.
how strange, how worrisome
may 8, 2025
2 minutes, 19 seconds
i was lazy here. i don't even know why i made this. it wasn't for an album or anything, i just liked the chord progression. and i blew it on a cheap compilation that no one listened to with two songs i already released. this was when i started losing steam with windowpanes and i just kinda felt like giving up.
shatter (single version)
june 30, 2025
3 minutes, 17 seconds
failed album #2 was a concept album about someone running away from home on the last day of their life. this would have been the second track. i kept working on this and writing, but it was also at the exact moment i basically gave up. i just had no motivation to write, to record, do anything. it just seemed useless. it wasn't fun anymore. so i decided to give up on it. but i love how this song sounds-- i really wanna make full album that sounds like this. just crazy, loud, anthemic tunes with feedback everywhere. but when the time comes, it'll happen.
unfinished
1. maybe in another life (the dream is over version) [1:56]
2. maybe in another life (don't i know you? version) [0:22]
3. maybe in another life (jammy version) [4:54]
4. il fait froid (laptop mic version) [1:49]
5. two deliverances (i have no clue how i got this guitar tone but it sounds fucking sick and i don't know how to get it back so i'm putting it up here for reference version) [0:07]
6. cold reactor (acoustic version that was an outtake from not my songs) [3:15]
7. cold reactor (studio version i forgot i made) [1:54]
8. wildflower (this would have been way better than the album version version) [0:37]
9. boxing day (first take version) [6:30]
10. 42 (shit my pants version) [7:15]
11. wither (sundown version) [2:13]
12. wither (nightfall version) [2:09]
13. corduroy (bro you just posted cringe version) [1:27]
14. corduroy (i'm only putting this up because i thought that vocal intro and the guitar riff with the fuzz were really cool version) [0:58]
15. corduroy (this one is really similar to the other one but it's longer and doesn't have the vocal intro but that cooler riff makes up for it version) [6:16]
16. song for a mermaid (check out my ambient/drone/noise album i made in bandlab in two days about my depression! version) [12:29]
17. song for a mermaid (early morning version) [5:15]
18. song for a mermaid (alt take version) [5:14]
19. i'm so happy i could die (acoustic version i decided not to go with on the final album) (feat. my dog who interrupted the recording) [3:50]
20. this song was called "let it come down" and it was supposed to be on self-titled but it sounded awful and cringy, so it's on here instead [3:53]
21. this is why i should never be in a math rock band [2:36]
22. windo)))wpanes #1 [8:50]
23. windo)))wpanes #2 [8:39]
24. i made this song out of anger after the presidential election and this was mostly because of him talking about canada being the 51st state and all that and in retrospect it seemed like an overreaction but honestly that expired cheeto needs to die. ACAB and fuck ICE [1:34]
25. i made this song for a side project but it never came to be, it would have been called either "i'm so happy i could die" or "so we shall part." it would have been like instrumental folk or something but i never finished it because i couldn't find a good free violin vst, if y'all know any lemme know [4:29]
26. a shitty cover of kkk hiway by mu330 [0:36]
27. this song is called "ghost." it was from an unfinished album called "rest" about my hometown and my late mother, and this would have been the opening track. it's kinda based of désolé, which would have also been on the album [0:58]
28. this song was called "glioblastoma," also from rest. i scrapped the album because a) it would have been too emotionally taxing to do, and b) i would have done my mum a disservice. so this is all you get. this song was me describing the process of slowly losing my mother to cancer [3:43]
29. a silly cover of weezer's "the good life" i made when i was like 12. honestly, it's a novelty [3:32]
30. this is a cover of car seat headrest's "psst, teenagers, take off your clo." it was the first song i ever recorded and there's only one audio file left and i wanna preserve it [1:52]
total runtime: 1 hour, 49 minutes, 12 seconds
exactly what it looks like. i wanted to put up my entire musical output up to 2025 under the windowpanes name so i could kinda move on from it and start again. you don't have to listen to these. i'd rather you not actually lol
this is the end of the page. i don't think i'll ever put out another windowpanes album the more i think about it. if i ever put anything out it'll be me putting it to rest. most of this stuff was written in the heat of the moment when i was either a) wanting to kill myself, b) telling myself how happy other people would be if i killed myself, or c) questioning my identity. i still do all three of those but at this point i've put it all into music and there's really no point in milking that cow anymore, and it's probably better if i just go to therapy, talk to my friends, try and be a better person. it represents a part of my life i don't want to dwell on anymore. it's emotional exodus to the point where it just makes me feel awful, to relisten and to write. i keep wanting to make one last project, wrap it up all nicely with a bow, but i don't think it'll ever come. i can't bring it to an end because there is no end. it just flows into whatever i do next. and the time's come for me to leave it behind. i don't want to feel that way anymore. if i ever want to come back, and revisit that depressing time in my life, these projects'll be there. but there's really no point in dwelling. i'm not that person anymore. so i'm moving on. that's why there won't be anymore windowpanes albums.
if you wound up reading all of this, thank you for caring about some random guy who makes weird music online. even if just one of you likes my music, that's enough. i'm happy. thank you all.